The daily grind of life has kept me busy. But I haven't, I will not stop the investigation. There's much work to be done. Whoever is responsible for the accident ... I will find out.

Jack

I haven't written a blog for a few months. I've been busy with life. But I have found some interesting things. I'll write soon.

Jack

WHAT WAS I THINKING?

COLLISION - 5/30/08


I was re-creating the car accident last week which explains why I didn't write a blog. What happened was that a driver cut me off. I wasn't in the right frame of mind. I felt like I was in a trance, as I entered the trance I rammed the driver's car off the road.

Luckily for the driver he wasn't hurt, just drunk. I spent the rest of the night speaking to the police and the next morning to the insurance company.

I learned my lesson to never do something as careless and dangerous as that again.

Jack

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Paranormal and Paranoid?

I received a new video from Rich - the Paranormal Videographer. I can tell that he's stressed out from the day to day grind of life. I've been busy as well. I can't seem to devote enough time to researching the accident.

I only wish there were 48 hours a day!

Jack

CARCASS - 5/8/08

3DD CARCASS - 5/8/08


I was out driving the past few nights when I noticed that the road in a certain California highway was littered with wrecked cars with the number 23 grafted onto the side body panel.

I don't know what to think of this. Is it another prank?

TORTURED EARTH - 5/1/08


A Distant Memory?

The car accident is not fading with time. At one point it was, or so I thought. I receive emails and videos from other drivers who were involved in similar accidents. This gives me hope, something to strive for.

I thank these people from the bottom of my heart. It makes me realize that I'm not the only one out there.

Jack

5/1/08

CRASHING THE SAME CAR OVER AND OVER AGAIN

RE/GRESSIONS - 4/23/08


In my nightmares I have recreated the car crash. There are things that I see that my conscious mind cannot comprehend. I see images of strange beings crowding my car. Rustling sounds of something struggling to open my door.

Before I can see a face I wake up from the nightmare. Never to repeat the same scene twice.

REPERCUSSIONS - 4/17/08

The detective who is helping me made me realize something that I wasn't aware of. Are any of these people who are sending me videos actually telling the truth or am I in denial.

Lies? Not Lies?

3DD - UNDERCOVERED - 4/10/08


ANTI CAR GROUP PRANK? SEND DRIVERS OVER THE ROAD.

I attended a Pranks Film Festival in San Francisco last week. I was fun, unfortunately Keren was not able to attend because of work. So I decided to take the plunge and drive the 6 + hours to Northern California. A fun time was guaranteed and I was not disappointed.

The Pranks Festival ran over 3 nights. It was very entertaining to say the least! But there was one thing that made me wonder. What if a prankster caused by accident? You know the kind - an anti car group eco-terrorist unit who treats all drivers as greedy earth destroying heathen creatures (they might actually be right).

While I sat in the theatre pondering the thought I suddenly made a beeline to the exit to get a breath of fresh air. The pranks festival made me open my mind. Maybe I have to refocus my attention.

Thank you Pranks Film Festival. And to the lovely lady who danced with me on the final night. I normally don't dance but when a lovely lady asks you ... well sometimes you can't resist.

THE SAME, BUT DIFFERENT - 3/27/08


With nothing to worry about

I am coming to the realization that I may never find out the reason or cause behind the car accident. At this point I could care less. I am spending time with Keren and we are enjoying each other's company. I find myself happy these days. I don't see any reason to bring more turmoil in my life. The past 2 1/2 years bears witness to it.

Cynical and optimistic?

I've been having light hearted conversations with Keren about the meaning of life. We've been having fun being around each other, I've not been concentrating about the accident. I value my time with Keren. myMy stomach has been in knots thinking about the accident.

THE HEDGE OF REALITY - 3/20/08

COVERING-UP



NO LONGER PERSONAL

I realized that the vblogs have been covering my personal life. I have been thinking about this in great detail. Do I reveal my personal life to the public, whomever is watching this. Are names really that important? Should I stick to the pertinent details - car accident, clues, etc. Or does my life unfold in front of the cameras?

As a Visual Anthropologist I have been recording the lives of the public for many years. It is only fair that I turn the camera on myself. I'm still not comfortable 'displaying' my life on-line. But if it helps with the accident investigation then I have no choice.

FOR WHATEVER REASON - 3/8/08

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Warmness in light of cold

Keren's father recently passed away. They were close. But she didn't know how to express herself to him in light of his illness. Sensing that she needed a friend, we patched up our differences to spend time with her family.

I am grateful to spend time with Keren and her family. They are very nice people, very honest and open.

Life is precious.

DOA HIGHWAY

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Occult Highway

The Paranormal Videographer has confirmed what others have been saying for quite sometime that Trabuco Canyon, Ortega Highway is a place for body dumping and other assorted dark tales.

I've read books and websites describing the area and it's history with the occult.

If I could film actual evidence of occult behavior taking place I would gladly take it to the police.

LOST CAUSE - 2/21/08

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Lost Cause

Keren is right, I am a lost cause. She has put in thousands of hours helping me with the website. I haven't spoken to her in weeks. I feel awful what I did to her. I had no right yelling at her in the car. I don't think she wants anything to do with me. I lost her as a friend. I feel terrible. I don't know how I can make it up to her.

HIDDEN CAMERA - ACCIDENT EYEWITNESS - 2/14/08

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EYEWITNESS DOCUMENT?

I met with the person who found me at the accident. She was out of the country for a few years. We were supposed to meet last month but she was only in the country for a couple of days for business.

I didn't find anything out of the ordinary information wise but I was happy to meet the woman who saved me. If it wasn't for her and her dog I wouldn't be here today.

INTO THIN AIR - 2/7/08

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'Loss of memory and time'

I have no recollection of the accident. I have complete memory loss of the incident. That seems to be a re-occuring theme with the other victims who were involved in the '23' wreck.

I thought about seeing a hynotherapist about regaining my lost memory of the event.

Did someone or something erase the sequence of events? Why would they do something like that?

INSANE ASYLUM - 2/1/08

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Stammheim Prison

I received a video from someone who claims to be a 'staff' member in a mental asylum in Germany. The doctor that I've been in contact with has been tortured. I don't know who or why someone would do this. Was he getting closer to the truth of what happened to his patients - i.e. mysterious car accident? Or was there an uprising in the asylum?

I don't know what asylum the doctor is working at. Originally it said the Stammheim Prison in Germany but somehow I doubt it. The prison was home to an infamous terrorist group in the 70's named the Baader-Meinhof. I am quite familiar with them having worked on a documentary close to 20 years ago about dangerous cults in the 70's. The reason I doubt the doctor works/worked at the asylum is that the hospital is rather infamous. If he does somehow work there then I apologize.

http://www.baader-meinhof.com/index.html

Road Rage

BEWARE + SUSPECT - 1/25/08

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I was driving on the freeway over the weekend. The assorted nutters were on the road driving like maniacs when suddenly two vehicles were having a go at it. A sedan and a truck weaving in and out of traffic with absolutely no regard of the other drivers! What is this world coming to?

I saw myself as the angry drivers. I can completely understand why Keren was so upset at me. She's slowly talking to me but she can't open up completely. I can't say that I blame her.

It's gotten to the point where I don't want to drive anymore. It really disturbs me.

Jack - 1/25/08

UNDER DIFFICULT CIRCUMSTANCES

CALM, BREATHING - 1/18/08

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Daily living is a struggle. Traffic, stress, work, the economy. I should be grateful that I'm doing well, except for my issues of anger management. I've been taking yoga and it has done wonders (see the video). I don't know why I used to scoff at it, but it is relaxing and it does wonders for the body and the mind. I guess I must have been a close minded westerner. And because I see it everywhere here in Southern California. Now I know why people love it.

I don't like the person that I've become. I have no excuse for my issues of road rage. I will become a better person. It's a new year. I can't feel sorry for myself.

Jack - 1/18/08

NAKED & BROKEN - 1/11/08

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COMPENDIUM 001

These are the materials that I've been reading / researching lately. Reference library:

1. Trepanning

Perhaps I need a hole in my head after dealing with Keren.

http://joern.free.de/luck_hole.html

http://amasci.com/hole.html

http://www.ambient.ca/bodmod/hole.html
I'm interested in Trepanation to improve my well being and psyche. Maybe it will help me remember the accident? Or if Keren yells at me I can blame it on the hole in my head.
RE/Search Publications - San Francisco. I've been a fan of their books for quite some time. If you are a fan of the esoteric examine their site:
http://www.researchpubs.com/Blog/index.php
Readers have been asking me what Visual Anthropology is.
http://www.visualanthropology.net/
Reading Material:
Paul Feyerabend - 'Against Method'
JG Ballard - 'The Atrocity Exhibition' + 'Crash' (I hope some obscure cult weren't fans of the book. I shudder to think what they did to me if I were abducted by someone like them).

Composers:

Iannis Xenakis

http://home.wanadoo.nl/eli.ichie/biographyxenakis.html

I have been compiling and organizing my library recently. I thought I would share some of this information with you.

I HATE DRIVERS - 1/4/07

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EYEWITNESS? - 1/5/07

The Detective working on my case called me to say that the person who found my wrecked car agreed to speak with me. Nonetheless I am happy and relieved to find the person who found me. I also want to thank her.

The eyewitness was out of the country on business for the past 2 years. She was concerned to see how I was doing. She's back in the country, she needs a few days to get settled in and will meet me within the next week.

I know that I upset Keren with my erratic and angry driving. I do need help. I have anger inside of me. I can't control it and I realize that I need to do something about it. I've been reading books about dealing with anger. Anger is something that can't be eliminated but it can be controlled. I should have been practicing the breathing exercises. Easier said than done.

Keren has every right to be upset with me. I've been a complete and utter nutter and I shouldn't be driving when I am upset.

I stayed at home during New Years eve. Keren is still upset at me so I spent the night alone. It was probably better, but I was feeling lonely.

I should get used to it.

- Jack - January 5, 2008